I brought my five year old son to the airport today. He is spending a week and a half with his grandparents and going camping at the beach in Carpinteria. Its pretty much his favorite place on earth. I thought I was looking forward to a quiet week with just Caiden at home, but as I walked away from my smiling boy who stood there waving and waving and getting smaller and smaller and farther and farther away, I just kept thinking, "What in the world am I doing?! Why is my little boy standing so far away and I am not going toward him, but am actually walking away from him?" I wanted to run right back over there and scoop him up! I was trying to be brave for him and for Caiden, but as I got into the car and drove away, the tears welled up in my eyes.
My main job at home is to disciple him and teach him. Its like a never-ending commission. School never lets out. He's learning so much and we work so hard, its a shame to have him leave. "School is still in session!" I want to exclaim and hold him close to me. But I have to remember that it is actually the Holy Spirit who is his true teacher and I am just a tool. So now, I pass the burden of this great commision on to grandma and grandpa and pray that the Lord uses them this next week as His tools to teach this little scholar.
I love you, little Elliott. We'll save your place in class for you for your return. No one will be sitting at your desk!
6 comments:
Oh, I feel sad for you. That must be so hard. I'm sure he will have a wonderful time with his Grandparents. I love you, praying for you!
Nevaeh will be stoked to hear this news:)
20 years ago when my son was 5 he flew alone to Sacramento to visit his grandma. I still remember watching him board the plane with his teddy bear:) And as I watched the plane fly away, I thought...what was I thinking!:) That was the first of many annual solo flights. Yesterday I was at Islands restaurant with my son and his bride, and guess who we saw...your sweet, smiling son:)
Gosh, yes I am starting to see that being a parent is a long list of many "goodbyes" I felt that way when Lily started Kindergarden this year. I cried the whole week! But now she loves school and is learning to read and making new friends. But yah, geez no one told me it would be this hard...!
I saw him today at the good friday service!! I was actually curious if it meant you and dave were in town but now I know, its just him! you are so brave, but I'm sure it helps knowing he is in good hands ;)
Oh, this breaks my heart! Such a tough thing to do. I hope he having fun though!
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